For days, I’ve been struggling on what to write. I have lots of stories to share but I can’t seem to pour it out and release it. (Nauutal ako.. haha!)
Thought#1
Lately, in a snap of reality (thanks to my calendar and endless celebration of christmas) I realized that 2009 is ending. And to tell you the truth,I don’t want this year to end, Weird huh? For me,This year is not that good and not that bad. Half of the things that happened this year were nightmares, and half of it were fairytales (minus the prince) But there’s no way to deny that this year is indeed a blessing. I learned so much from God’s intense discipline and Life’s secret messages. Most of them are painful and unacceptable to my own consciousness but I need to chew and digest it.
Here are some events that I won’t forget this year:
1. June 17,2009,the night before my 18th birthday, Kien died, and i wasn’t able to attend her wake. With pain in my heart, i suffered from depression. For four months, I was depressed, not just because of Kien’s death but also to some people whom you thought will never leave you, but they did.
2. I did plead God to take my life (effect of depression). I’m glad that our God is all-knowing and He didn’t grant this stupid request.
3. November2009 was the month I started leading praise and worship to our Youth Service. I thanked God that He assigned me to lead and usher people to His presence. Honestly, I don’t deserve it, I’m a sinner, but God demonstrate His love when Jesus died for my sins and bridge the gap between me and God. It doesn’t just apply to me, but to every people. So if you’re reading this, I want to tell you that God died for you because He loves you so much that He is willing to do everything just to have you =)
4.When people leave you, there will be replacements. i gained new and real friends! Thank You LORD! 
5. The explorations and the Up’s and Down’s of growing old. I won’t forget that! haha!
6. First time I experienced na maging victim ng ala-stampede sa LRT-Vito Cruz Station nung umusok yung train. Geez, It caused me 8 swelling pasa, one sa head, 4 sa arms and 3 sa legs!
7. Two video shoots in a year. ( ENCM(PNU) promotional video and an Indie film)Enjoooy! )
8. Bye Bye Braces (June2009) and Hello Retainers!
9. My 18th Birthday!
10. Race for Life (www.igivetolife.com)
Thought#2
One sunday service, Our Senior Pastor challenged us and gave us a paper to list down the top 10 things we are grateful for this year. Well,at the back of my mind, I was like (I have tons!!!) And to tell you the truth I’m still thinking what to write in that sheet of paper because my trains of thoughts are unstoppable. I plan to do a draft here, NOW. So here it goes:
1. The mere fact that I’m still breathing,living and loving. =)
2. The fact that God didn’t take my life away during those times that I was forcing him to.
3. I thank God that he granted me an opportunity to love, learn and to accept people’s flaws, knowing that I have more.
4.
waa! Ang dami. So ito muna yung top three ) waa. forgive me.
Thought #3
I’m still addicted to coffee. haha! Hindi na yata mawawala. I need it sa mga future sleepless nights.
Thought#4
I love Puto Bumbong. It’s one of the highlights of a typical Pinoy Christmas. Hindi kumpleto ang Pasko kapag wala nito. haha! Agree?
Thought #5
I rarely cry now. Dati kasi iyakin ako, this year, hindi na. There’s no room na for crying. Umiiyak parin ako pero small amount lang, parang winisikan ka lang ng tubig sa mata )
Thought #6
I can’t write na. Ang bilis ng train of thoughts ko, Super SOC. (Stream of consciousness) haha! )
I need to read novels pa para sa pasukan! Buh-bye )
